Small Goals

My one year follow-up appointment is in 22 days.  I had hoped to be under 200 lbs by then.  To say I haven't been on track lately would be an understatement.

My husband is still here, thank God, but it was close.  He has been diagnosed with a disease that he we will probably struggle with the rest of our lives.  I can't go into more detail, only I will say it is not a result or complication of his having gastric bypass done.

I have been so far off the rails with regards to my eating.  I have felt sick from eating too many times to remember.  You would think I would stop if I am making myself sick, but it is like I can't help myself.  I have found that I have a much higher tolerance for savory foods than I do sweet foods.  I crave the sweet ones though.

Exercise has become nonexistent in my life.  My husband was off work for a whole month when he was in the hospital.  So I got a job, or two.  Actually, I am working three jobs right now.  I'm tired.  But I will be down to two jobs on Wednesday.

I "restarted" several times getting through half to one whole day before caving in and eating something I shouldn't.  My hunger is definitely back and it is vicious.  Today, I've done great though.  So great that on a whim I decided to weigh myself in the evening.  I thought I might as well know how bad it is.  To my surprise, I weigh 219.5 lbs.  My lowest weight yet.  Seeing that inspired me to blog.  Hopefully the inspiration will last and I will stick with it tomorrow and beyond.

I don't think I will be losing 19.5 pounds in the next three weeks.  Maybe I can just make it down to 215 lbs, seems reasonable, right?  Also, I would like to start exercising again, Wednesday would be a good day to start that.  Small goals are good goals.